http://beggarsnotes.livejournal.com/32312.html

This lady will forever be my favourite writer in ‘slash’ hahahhaa, she’s so good, and I really feel like I’m apart of the fucking thing. 

I cried my eyes out two years ago, reading this fan fiction, and I still am crying my eyes out. I’m nearly eighteen years old for fucks sake. 

I have a sore throat, I really don’t want to go to work today. I really am tired and sooky. 

I want to just go to a meadow and take a lot of photos and just lay in the sun shine. I don’t even mind that it’s ten degree’s. It’d still be nice to actually be in a meadow. 

I drank milk. I think I have an intolerance for it. 

I have a sore throat :( 

I write a lot of choppy shit now, I never really write anything long anymore. Why is that? I miss being in school and doing whatever the hell I wanted, although school sounds like it’s getting super stressful. 

I miss my friend Ariana. I’m not sure why.. I just miss knowing that I could go to her place and we could gasp bag about everything. But I did have every right in the world to get mad at her the other day. I was standing up for a friend. And that friend is precious to me. 

I miss crystal. I miss her coming to my house all the time, bloody working weekends has done so much damage to my social life. I feel depressed. 

I miss Cassie, at work, but Amber is doing extemely well in fixing that hurt. 

I love Amber. She’s a sick bitch. 

Just deciding what friends. 

Always making decisions. 

I miss Aaliyah, just because she was really fun to be around, but I feel like we’re at such different places in life, and when I try to hang with her, I feel annoying. She’s too cool now, and I’m still the same lame girl. 

And most of all, I miss my best friend, Allannah Penny, I miss laying in bed and watching a thousand and six movies, and tv show’s. I miss being actually alone with her, I sound like a controlling boyfriend sometimes when I talk to her or about her, because I miss her that much. I miss going on ‘our’ adventures. I’m quite sure that growing up without her would have been horrible. She was always my light at the end of the tunnel. I miss the hell out of her. She’s someone that I know I’ll always have countless thing’s in common with, we either experience thing’s together, or one of us has been through it, so therefore we can explain it to one-another. I miss her :( 

http://www.domain.com.au/Property/For-Rent/Apartment-Unit-Flat/NSW/Penrith/?adid=7598181

seriously considering this place. I just wish we had the bond money. This place is perfect! 

Currently have bleach in my hair. Feel like a fancy fella. 

I’m tired as all fuck, and so glad that I got to finish work at 2 today instead of five thirty. I am so broke it’s not even funny. But I really really want to do something tonight. Forever in this little cycle. 

I have frozen fingers from washing bleach off my fingers because I forgot to buy gloves. I wonder how my hair’s going to turn out.. 

I really should pay for a professional to do it. Decisions. money.. decisions. 

I have a sore eye. 

My boyfriend and I are so well it’s not even funny. We’re like the happiest in the whole world. pew. pew. 

I have a family bbq soon, and I can’t be bothered to get pretty for it. But must look better then my cousin. 

I am fat at the moment, I haven’t drank enough green tea.

I’m listening to Tay Mom at the moment, I love her so much, she’s the prettiest little lady. 

I have bought so much shit online lately. Thanks to Crystal showing me a site, that’s not good for my pay check. 

I have recently gone to an interview at The Royal Prince Alfred Hospital, and had to make 100 points of I.D. so they could do a security check on me. My whole family works there, so in about a month and a half - two months. I’ll be working at a hospital as a Ward Clerk. They said that the first few weeks will be a struggle, but once I am all trained up, I’ll be making between $1000- $2000 dollars a fortnight. Which I’m really excited about! 

My bosses are still a bunch of bitches, and my work collegues but one suck ass. I hate work with a passion at the moment, my bosses are bitches and think they can treat you like shit, all the time, every time. 

On another note, I’m a tad bit sickly. I miss my best friend with a passion and I need to update my shoe collection very soon. 

I have a sore toe. 

My boyfriend and I are two years IN TWO DAYS. how insane is that! 

We’re just a bunch of cuties, I tell yah! 

I have a birthday coming up, a seventeenth of friend of mine and I have no idea what to buy her or what to wear. I’m sure I’ll just wear anything, but I’m most worried about what to buy her. Part of my thinks that I was only invited because my boyfriend was.. but it’s still the thought that counts. So that’s really nice. 

I’m currently nearly finished season 1 of Supernatural, I’m so obsessed seriously. I don’t even know how I would live without Supernatural and The Vampire Diaries, or my boyfriend for that matter. 

Does anyone have that one friend, that you try so hard to please, but you never do? I do. I’m sure everyone does. Why haven’t we dropped them as friends yet? What makes us be friends with them for so long, when it doesn’t mean a thing? I don’t know. I guess I’m a tad sooky today. 

I have the sickest tan at the moment. 

Today: I went to Thai with my mamma and we bought Yellow Curry. It’s this sweet little place in Mulgoa, And then we made the biggest mistake of getting Deep Fried Ice-Cream, which was fucking disgusting. I don’t know why anyone would even eat it. DISGUSTING. 

I could cry. Yesturdays events really messed with me :( being a girl sucks.